I know not how thou singest,my master!

I know not how thou singest,my master!I ever listen in silent amazement.


The light of thy music illumines the world.The life breath of thy music runs from sky to sky.The holy stream of thy music breaks through all stony obstacles and rushes on.


My heart longs to join in thy song,but vainly struggles for a voice.I would speak,but speech breaks not into song,and I cry out baffled.Ah,thou hast made my heart captive in the endless meshes of thy music,my master!
1.3.05 13:22


Picturesque senery


Taken at the East Lake.Will post the story some other day when I'm available.Enjoy the photograph!
3.3.05 15:26


an alternative way of expressing

最近不想用文字，也可能是词穷了吧。换一种方式表达，无需更多的修饰。



Welcome to My Photoblog for more pictures,most of which are taken and modified by me.
6.3.05 16:30


Blustering Atrocity!

Accidents often occur with the least bit of portent,just like the ever-changing weather in subtropical Wuhan.You probably bask in the sunshine,enjoying the intoxicating warm breeze at this moment and suddenly soft breeze turns into outrageous wind and blow you away the next.The Central Meteorologic Station said the temperature would drop sharply by over 15 degrees tomorrow in central China.Oh boy,we are going to be in the icy winter again next moring we wake up.


But unfortunately,temperature drop is not the protagonist here tonight.It is my underclothes,the trousers.


9 pm.I was reading someone's blog when Mum shouted to me.I answered and rushed to the balcony.She was then sticking her neck out of the window,looking down.I was told my freshly washed underclothing trousers hung on the hanger outside the balcony was missing.Heck,we're on the top floor the seventh so no thief/burglar would take such a high risk to play a spiderman game.Obviously,it was blown away,as I've alluded before,by the outrageous wind.


Mum then asked me to run an errand downstairs to the front yard to look for it.So I did it,which turned out to be a vain trip.No white trousers were found.Afterwards,Mum went down to our fifth-floor neighbour asking if it was hung somewhere on their hangers,but it wasn't.


And now,I could officially declare the vanishing of such a pair of underclothing trousers worn less than 10 times.It was gone even without enough of my sexy young smell.How pathetic!


 


PS:the weather forecast said it might rain as well tomorrow so if it were too heavy I'll ask my lecture for a day off.Arrrrrrgh,on-the-spot internship and the dissertation are killing me!
10.3.05 15:45


“相濡以沫，不如相忘于江湖”

“我们现在只是半圆，对吧？半圆是随时可能变成直线的。”


……


“没什么，我就突然想到了。”


……


 


三月四月五月六月


……
13.3.05 06:41


不见棺材不落泪

If you read Chinese,and are into 'water',and most importantly care about our environment,please do read THIS.


现实一次又一次地给我迎头痛击，一次又一次地让我领教到麻木不仁的最高境界，一次又一次地告诉我，这就是我生活的国度，这就是我们的“人民”。


幸好，历史给了我周树人，让我的绝望能找到一丝聊以自慰的荒谬理由。


这个恶劣的文化生态系统，让我的眼泪接近劣五类水质。


然而，我就活生生的苟且于其中，一点点被侵蚀掉，残存一个枯萎的灵魂。
16.3.05 14:45


When You Are Old

                         by William Butler Yeats


When you are old and grey and full of sleep,
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;
How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true,
But one man loved the pilgrim Soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face;
And bending down beside the glowing bars,
Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.


I look forward to the moment when I'm old.But now,I must make up enough stories for my final retrospection.
16.3.05 15:14


About today

Spent the whole day sitting still before computer searching materials and writing dissertation for my secondary major.I'll have to finish it before tomorrow.It proved once again that I've always been a procrastinator handing in assignment.


Now all I can feel is the pain in my eyes.I'm encompassed by lethargy.Have to get up early tomorrow and still lots of heavy task lies ahead of me.


今天，虽未亲历生命的逝去，但我再一次感受到了生命的脆弱与珍贵。如果你还在放逐自己，浪费自己的生命，想想你死去的那一天。或者，更残酷些，设想一下如果明天你就会死去，今天你会怎样对待自己仅有的一次生命？
19.3.05 16:30


日本想成为安理会常任理事

就算你交的联合国会费比靖国神社里的死鬼还要多又怎么了？


全世界都对你缺乏信任！


想成为常任理事国？


可以，向亚洲邻国谢罪！


否则没人会答应！


美国支持你？


安南也支持你？


呵呵，好，总有一天你会吃更多的A Bomb!


如果你觉得日本不够格，可以在这儿留名。
23.3.05 14:22


《读报》两则

3月25日凤凰卫视《有报天天读》：


一、陈丹青愤然出走清华美院；


二、《狼牙山五壮士》将从小学课本上消失。


性感老头杨锦麟的评论：


一、“因为不满现行教育体制……很多有才气的学生因为政治和英语而被卡在研究生门槛之外……”“对教育制度的问题国内的教授大多敢怒不敢言……”


二、“日本篡改历史教科书是变性，中国删除爱国课文是自宫……”“最后点题一个字：阉”


愚人愚见：


        说来说去都是关于教育。陈丹青走与不走，教材改革改与不改，“爱国”课文删与不删，中国大陆的教育从来都没有摆脱为政治服务的宿命；加上金钱与权利的腐化，这个教育体制已经丧失了“雄起”所必需的激素支持了。杨老头的点题实在是妙。
25.3.05 06:19


又及

附上一篇相关报道，点这儿。


“我之请辞，非关待遇问题，亦非人事相处的困扰，而是至今不能认同现行人文艺术教育体制……我深知，这一决定出于对体制的不适应，及不愿适应。”


“好好准备政治和外语，其他都是胡扯！”


“对任何一位想当艺术家的青年，今日的考试制度是不折不扣的荒谬与侮辱。”


“我是知青，没有上过学，不懂外语。”


“我想带瞧不起博士的博士生。”


“‘科研’，一个外行词语，竟公然霸占着艺术学院的教学表格。这是对艺术的轻蔑，深刻的轻蔑！”


“只要出现‘量化’、‘管理’、‘科学’、‘科研’等等辞令，我就不会填写类似的表格，这类辞令与人文艺术及其相关教育无涉，在这些辞令构成的话语文本中，我们无法辨认人文艺术的规律与本质，因此，我不要进入这一‘话语圈套’。”


“你们看，手！皮下面是肉，肉里面是筋，筋里面是脉络，是骨头。你画这只手，就要画出皮、肉、筋、脉、骨！”


“艺术教学是非功利的，非程序性的，是具体而微、随时随地在每位学生、每个阶段，甚至每件作品中寻求当下的沟通、指涉、领悟，师生‘双方’应以无休止的追问精神，探讨画布上、观念上、感觉上，直至心理上的种种问题。这样的教学难以体现在教案文本上，难以在工作总结中表述，在我奉命填写的所有表格中，完全无法体现我的教学思想与教学后果。”


“那是对体制的确认，而不是对学术道德及其规律的确认。”


“我也是体制。我们都拿着国家的俸禄，我们的学院、画院、美术馆、美协、研究院，全是国家的，官办的。”


“过去，官方对我们意味着他者，今天，我们就是官方。”


“以‘两课’分数作为首要取舍标准，学术尊严荡然无存，人文艺术及其教育不可能具备起码的前提。”


“有知识没文化”、“有技能没常识”、“有专业没思想”


“在人文艺术学科，没有人能够夸耀并保证在学院中培养出真正的艺术家，但学院教育应该，也能够达到这样一种起码的要求，即确立一位艺术学生葆蓄终生的品格，这品格，就是清华大学前国学研究院大师陈寅恪写在70年前的名句：‘独立之人格，自由之思想’。”


“这就是体制的厉害。”


“你不说假话，你连画画的资格都没有，你画着虚假的主题，你的处境却是真实的。”


“中国人的言行向来难分真假，‘文革’一代的言行则无所谓真，也无所谓假。”


“我们谁都是体制的合作者，当年一心想要进入体制。”


“知青、盲流、个体，其实是一回事，就是在体制外自己养活自己，自己担当自己的选择。


“我发现我受不了。要做我自己，只有离开体制。”


“体制内很多人认真教书，正派做人。在妥协和不妥协之间，他们很难，很辛苦，我理解他们，尊敬他们。”


“我不想再玩下去了”，“我知道，这样做是一种奢侈。”
25.3.05 06:27


New update of Gitanjali

Life of my life,I shall ever try to keep my body pure,knowing that thy living touch is upon all my limbs.


I shall ever try to keep all untruths out from my thoughts,knowing that thou art that truth which has kindled the light of reason in my mind.


I shall ever try to drive all evils away from my heart and keep my love in flower,knowing that thou hast thy seat in the inmost shrine of my heart.


And it shall be my endeavor to reveal thee in my actions,knowing it is thy power gives me strength to act.
27.3.05 12:03


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